Sunday, July 13, 2008

Change is in the air...

I am officially no longer a blond. On a whim I bought a box of color and I am a dark brunette now and I love it! Everyone says it brings out my eyes. It's actually darker than my natural color, and I've never had it this dark, but I just love it! I almost don't recognize myself when I look in the mirror, but I'm growing accustomed to it. I'll take a picture soon and show off my new look.

I had a really good weekend. Friday night SuzAnne and her kids came down and Ashley came over and we just all hung out. It was good to just chill out.

Saturday the kids and I went to the park and had a picnic. I told them I would push them on the swings for a while, but I also wanted to have some fun too. So I swang really high while they got mad at me, because I was scaring them. I jumped off the swings, even got a hole in my shorts acting like a 6 year old. I'm amazed at how therapeutic that was! You should try it! I think I will be doing that more often.

Saturday night I went out with a friend. That would be a girl friend for all you nosy people. I've decided to no longer speak of any dating relationships I have in the future, for completely obvious reasons. We went to Las Brisas. I had never been there before. We sat out on the patio until somewhere around 1 in the morning. It was so fun and SO needed! I kind of paid for it today, because I'm exhausted, but we still managed to get up for church and spend the day at my parents house.

I'm going back to counseling and I'm so excited! I had been thinking about doing it and then Dr. and Mr. Brown "highly suggested" I do so as well. Just calling to make an appointment was like a breath of fresh air to me. I'm not embarrassed at all to admit that. I believe it's in the best interest of anyone who is human to routinely get mental health check ups. We all need a sense of direction or someone to bounce things off of at some point...single, married, divorced...it's good for everyone.

I've come to the conclusion what makes this part of my life challenging is that when I was getting divorced I basically had a checklist of things to do.
1. file
2. wait
3. child support
4. finalize

While there were a huge stream of emotions that went along with all of that, I felt like I had a goal. Right now things are very abstract, and I feel like I'm in such uncharted territory. I just want to do things right. And furthermore I want to keep from repeating mistakes. So I don't know when my first appointment is yet, but I just can't wait. I love talking to King Buchanan. He makes things so simple that I as a person tend to make complex.

My head really is full of so many thoughts, all of which I just can't think of right now. Thanks for all your support though. As I was driving home after my night out Saturday night, I just thought to myself this thought...I'm not always sure of what I'm doing, but everything I am doing is part of me becoming ME.

4 Comments:

Blogger Jennifer K said...

I want to see a picture of your new color!!! It sounds like you are making great strides through this time. We all need to get together soon!

9:12 PM  
Blogger Barbie said...

I went darker and shorter and I get the same thing about "it brings out your eyes" lol I have very blue eyes so I guess darker hair brings them out...who knows they are the same eyes!! I totally understand your thoughts and feelings...I have decided NOT to date at all until I am finished growing to be the woman God created me to be...I was just "released" from counseling and I am off my antidepressants so I am moving forward...I feel like a whole nother person and I know it shows...I am SOOO in LOVE with God right now and He is ALL I need...and one day I am sure I will be ready to date but I am not in a hurry;) Plus I have some amazing women friends to go out with!

11:38 PM  
Blogger Tisha said...

Can't wait to see pics! :) I so totally agree - we all need a place to go dispense all our emotions with no judgement and a safe environment. I'm thinking I might need to go back again soon....just making the call.....scares me. :)

1:50 PM  
Blogger Penless Thoughts said...

Can't wait to see the picture! Our 22 year old granddaughter went from blond to DARK brown a little over a year ago. It was such a shock but is so her now.

Congrats on your move to counseling :o)

And I loved how you ended your post about becoming you.
Susan

7:28 AM  

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