A Few Observations...

1. How many times does Dateline need to do a "To Catch A Predator" Special before they get it that we all know that there are a lot of sick pedophiles out there. I mean seriously, it's always the same story. "I thought she was 18...I was just coming to keep her company...I didn't come here for sex." Please...I am about tired of it all.

Okay, so that was an observation, and not a few. I just had to mention it. (A special is on right now)

Today I went and sat with my mema. I will say someone who is passing on and the state of mind they are in, is an interesting observation. She is just having a really hard time letting go. I was by myself for a while with her and she would start getting upset and get really scared. It gets really sad. We are just all hoping she will pass on soon. Not to be selfish or anything, but it is just difficult for everyone...mostly her! Her birthday is Saturday. She will be 93. My mom said that a lot of times the elderly will hold on for an occasion that they really don't even remember. The power of the subconscious. It is an amazing thing!

I have decided to go back to counseling. Well really someone told me they thought maybe I should. I started a divorce care support group about 3 weeks ago, and the leader suggested it. She told me that she thinks I am handling everything well, but that I just have so much on my plate that I may need some help juggling everything. And I agree. I am actually very relieved to be going back. I am going to a new counselor this time. I am sure many of you Lubbockites have heard of him. His name is Dr. King Buchanan. I've heard of him, and heard a lot of good things about him. Yesterday him and I were kind of playing phone tag and he called me last night. It was after 7p.m. and he just talked to me. And I really had the sense that he generally cared for my situation and what I was going through. I told him how I was feeling and he told me, that I was a wise woman. And it made me want to cry. I mean to have someone who doesn't know me pay me a compliment means a lot. I don't have self esteem problems, but I think going through a divorce naturally makes you feel a little beat up...physically, emotionally and even spiritually sometimes. And let me tell you being pregnant doesn't help much. I mean I just feel hot. Especially with maternity underwear. Which I know is possibly the most random thing I could say at this point. But seriously, I hate maternity underwear. I am still not that big, but my regular underwear are getting too small. But I hate that maternity underwear can stretch all the way up to the bottom of your bra. Maybe I should go shop for some more and see what's out there. I was shopping a couple of weeks ago and I saw a maternity thong. Ohhhh, I don't think I could do it. A pregnant woman in a thong...oh whoever you are...you are a brave woman!

Okay, sorry for that rant. It was on my mind.

I go to the doctor on thursday. I get to have the wonderful glucose test that makes you burp for like an hour afterwards. Well it does me anyways. I always hate that. And then I hate having my blood taken too...yuck.

The kids are going to go home with Nathan's mom on Friday. She is going to come down and get them for the weekend and bring them back on Monday. I haven't been without both of them since all this started. I love my kids to death, but I am really looking forward to the break. I am going to the "Zoe Conference" at Monterey this weekend. I've never heard of it, but apparently it's a big thing, so I'm excited. I think it will be really good for me. I may even try to catch a movie. There are several that I want to see.

Anyways, well that's about it for now. I hope you're all having a good week!