It's a Boy!!!

I went for my sonogram on Tuesday, and I'm having another boy!!! I'm really excited. Even though I thought it was a girl, I am very excited to have a boy! I have decided on the name Mason Lee. (Lee is my middle name, my dad's, and my uncle's.) He said everything looks excellent, and I am right on target with June 16th!

It's been a good week. I signed my lease for new house yesterday. I think right now renting makes so much more sense for me, b/c I need help fixing things! The kids and I are very excited about this new change. They are putting new carpet in the bedrooms, and they are letting me re-paint the living room. It was a pinkish color. Love pink...just not on my walls! The house has hard wood floors throughout the rest of the house. It is 2 blocks from the elementary that Madi will be attending next year, and I've been told my an ex-LISD teacher that it's one of the best schools in LISD, and has an excellent GT program. So, all in all I think this is going to be a good move. We will be able to move on Feb. 4th, so I have lots to do. I am having a divorce/estate sale though, so I am going to try to get rid of a lot of stuff. There is no way our t.v. or couch will fit in the new house, so I am selling them both...among other things. So if anyone is interested in a large sectional that is in very good condition with a queen size sleeper in it, let me know!!!

I started counseling today. She "treated and released" me all in one session. After being there for a little bit, I wasn't sure if I really needed to be there, well she agreed. We did talk a lot about boundaries which isn't any suprise to me, because that is something I have always had to work on. We did talk about how in a christian society it is hard to understand that we need to put God first and then take care of ourselves second. If we can't take care of ourselves, then how can we be expected to reach out and take care of others. And if others can't accept that, then that is their problem and misperception. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion on how I should be dealing with this, but the truth of the matter is that I have to set boundaries for myself. I got upset by a comment someone who I don't know made on my blog the other day. I know she meant well by saying that we could all be comforting others, but right now I have to worry about myself. I am not responsible for Nathan's actions, or that hurt he has caused, and I do not have to fix the hurt either. However, I am responsible for my actions, and my attitude. As long as I am carrying myself with a christian attitude, then I have set boundaries for myself. So lesson number one...a work in progress!!

A lot of people are really suprised at how well I am doing, and I really have to say it is a testament to the strength God has given me and gives all of us, and not a personal triumph. I wouldn't be doing this well if it weren't for his unfailing love and power! And I know I will continue to have down days...this is life...it happens. But the strength God has given me is just unmeasurable.

So we have a lot to look forward to...a new house...a new baby brother...warmer weather someday (my goodness, did we all move to Alaska???) and a new future!!! Have a happy weekend and stay warm! I'm off to play bunco!!!