Monday, August 04, 2008


The last week or so have been a little odd. I would say I've had some really bad luck. I call it luck, because I really don't think it has much to do with me, but instead with the others I've dealt with. I'm a little embarrassed about it all too. I could laugh so hard about it, that it makes me cry. I could also cry about it and make myself laugh. All in all I believe that the events are making me what God wants me to be. That literally is the ONLY explanation I have.

I've discovered a few things about myself. I have a backbone, we all do. Some of us just don't use it, and that is a decision we make on our own. I've used my backbone a lot in the last week or so. It's felt good. Sometimes we need some practice in using our backbones. And if we are criticized in the process, then they never really mattered anyways. It is my prerogative to be who I am and live the way I chose. I am after all the one who has to answer for the decisions I make. As long as I'm doing and living the way God wants me to...then my life is my life.

I was talking to my of my dear friends the other day and she told me I was beginning to sound like a feminist. (She is a self-proclaimed feminist as well. ) I first of all thought I would never have a best friend who was a feminist and I certainly thought I'd never be one as well. I'm not sure I like that word. I just have a negative image of the thought of feminism. I think I prefer "strong woman" instead.

I think I'm just tired of the game. I'm tired of the bull. I'm tired of standing at the gas pump and being told that, "I'm making the air smell really good." Seriously, no lie...this man told me that a few months ago. I was like, "ummm...thank you, I think. Please don't follow me when I leave." (I did say thank you, but I didn't follow it up with that last part.) I can accept compliments, that's not what I'm talking about's much deeper than that.

I realize that this world is so sexed up, but I AM NOT. I AM a good girl, a nice girl, I have a brain, and a backbone. AND just because I don't want to talk to you, date you, be with you, marry you after only knowing you for 24 hours, or have your child, does not mean that I'm a witch. It means that I have a prerogative to do what it is that I want, and will do whatever it is that I feel Christ is leading me to do or not do. That doesn't make me a makes a girl who knows what she wants and what she doesn't want. When did that ever change in this world? And what is so wrong with that?


Blogger Jenny said...

Preach it sister!

9:47 PM  
Blogger Jenny said...

Don't mind my email, I know what happened.

9:33 AM  
Blogger Jenn said...

There is nothing wrong with the decisions that you have made for your life. Like you stated, you know what you want. I had to come to grips with this very thing. I am learning to have a backbone. And you are right. It felts good to hold your own, as long as the Lord is pleased and you are seeking Him before you make a decision, its all good. :) I wouldn't consider you a feminist. Just a wonderful woman of God who want to please Him in every aspect of her life. :)

11:36 AM  
Blogger Chrissy Cross said...

It never hurts to stand up for what you think is right. And honestly, some men just aren't worth thinking about more than a minute. Be strong in the fact that your strength is not just yours, but it comes from the powerful arms of God. I don't think that you are a feminist, just a Godly woman.

1:09 PM  
Blogger Katherine said...

Well, if that makes you a feminist-then call me one, too! ;) But, it doesn't mean that-you are being strong and standing up for yourself AND your children. You have the right and the choice to make that decision-especially after what you have walked through.

God has given you much wisdom-and it is from Him, don't let anyone question that or make you think you should give in to the world's standards. That is not what we are called to. We may stick out-but we are supposed to, because we are called by God to something different-and there is NOTHING wrong with that! God gave us brains and He wants us to use them. Just keep relying on Him-I am proud of you and I know He is, too :)

2:27 PM  
Blogger realitymomma said...

i found out in college that what you are saying is not feminism; it's intimadating! someone actually told me and sue that we were intimadating. what? we were so surprised....

be strong - and yes, we have to take care of ourselves!

10:18 PM  
Blogger Emily said...

I just read a book and based on this post I'd like to recommend it to you. It's called "Temptations of a Single Girl." The cover and title are spoony, but it's presented in a VERY applicable way.

BTW, I have no intentions of shriveling up and dying at the age of 30! I plan to be 30, flirty, and thriving! Duh.

Love you!!

9:49 AM  
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