Transitions...
"I saw a friend who's a freelance writer and asked him what he was working on. 'Nothing right now,' he answered. 'You know how it is for freelancers. But at times like this I tell myself I'm 'between opportunities.' That way I don't have to feel I'm nowhere.'
There's often a tendency for us to hurry though transitions. We may feel that these transitions are "nowhere at all" compared to what's gone on or what we anticipate is next to come. But you are somewhere...you're 'between'"
(Please excuse my pathetic attempt to quote with in a quote...I don't know how to correctly do it.)
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"Transitions are almost always signs of growth, but they can bring feelings of loss. To get somewhere new, we may have to leave somewhere else behind."
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"Sometimes it surprises me to think that my work on that first children's program was almost by chance! Isn't it mysterious how so many wonderful things in life come to us seemingly without our planning? We start traveling down one street, and we find ourselves interested in something we never expected on a side street; and as we explore it, the side street becomes the main road for us."
All of the above is from Mister Rogers. I think he rocks.
Can you tell I've been reading a lot??? Man, I've just been soaking up lots of different things. I identify with all of this. I do feel in transition between a lot of things right now...physically, mentally, spiritually (most of all), and I also have to admit I'm hurting a little because of it. Normally, I would see that as bad. Why does transition have to hurt? I don't really have an answer, I am however choosing to look at it this way: transition is growth, and growth is from God. In light of that, I'm trying my hardest to take all that I feel (good and bad) and look at it on a spiritual level and know that God is doing something with it. I don't know what, and I have to get it through my stubborn human head, that I don't have to know. I do however, have to have faith to believe that He is taking my history somewhere. That path may be unconventional...in fact I'm pretty sure it is, and therefore I wouldn't understand if it was revealed to me anyways, but I'm going somewhere. I NEED TO TAKE REST IN THAT. I NEED to live by what I know, and NOT by what I feel.
DEFINITELY a work in progress...
On another note...my MIL's surgery went well. Things look really good. And my friend...God is working and things look like they might turn out differently that originally thought. I kind of thought so, honestly. There are those marriages that face divorce and shouldn't. I don't believe in divorce, but there are some marriages that are doomed from the start (like mine) and there are those that things just need to be worked on and worked out. I think any and every marriage could fall into those two categories. That's why I was so shocked when I heard the news! I'm happy for them, and at first was a little sad for myself. Why couldn't mine have turned out differently? And ya know, with complete and total honesty, God has a better plan for me and I know it. I don't know that plan, that plan may or may not include marriage someday. I'm actually not even talking about marriage when I'm talking about a God ordained "plan". I'm talking about something bigger than that...the bigger picture. I have a REALLY big dream in my heart for a lot of things. I think it's time I started focusing on that. God didn't bring me here "just because", He intended much more than that for me...you too.
There's often a tendency for us to hurry though transitions. We may feel that these transitions are "nowhere at all" compared to what's gone on or what we anticipate is next to come. But you are somewhere...you're 'between'"
(Please excuse my pathetic attempt to quote with in a quote...I don't know how to correctly do it.)
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"Transitions are almost always signs of growth, but they can bring feelings of loss. To get somewhere new, we may have to leave somewhere else behind."
***********************************
"Sometimes it surprises me to think that my work on that first children's program was almost by chance! Isn't it mysterious how so many wonderful things in life come to us seemingly without our planning? We start traveling down one street, and we find ourselves interested in something we never expected on a side street; and as we explore it, the side street becomes the main road for us."
All of the above is from Mister Rogers. I think he rocks.
Can you tell I've been reading a lot??? Man, I've just been soaking up lots of different things. I identify with all of this. I do feel in transition between a lot of things right now...physically, mentally, spiritually (most of all), and I also have to admit I'm hurting a little because of it. Normally, I would see that as bad. Why does transition have to hurt? I don't really have an answer, I am however choosing to look at it this way: transition is growth, and growth is from God. In light of that, I'm trying my hardest to take all that I feel (good and bad) and look at it on a spiritual level and know that God is doing something with it. I don't know what, and I have to get it through my stubborn human head, that I don't have to know. I do however, have to have faith to believe that He is taking my history somewhere. That path may be unconventional...in fact I'm pretty sure it is, and therefore I wouldn't understand if it was revealed to me anyways, but I'm going somewhere. I NEED TO TAKE REST IN THAT. I NEED to live by what I know, and NOT by what I feel.
DEFINITELY a work in progress...
On another note...my MIL's surgery went well. Things look really good. And my friend...God is working and things look like they might turn out differently that originally thought. I kind of thought so, honestly. There are those marriages that face divorce and shouldn't. I don't believe in divorce, but there are some marriages that are doomed from the start (like mine) and there are those that things just need to be worked on and worked out. I think any and every marriage could fall into those two categories. That's why I was so shocked when I heard the news! I'm happy for them, and at first was a little sad for myself. Why couldn't mine have turned out differently? And ya know, with complete and total honesty, God has a better plan for me and I know it. I don't know that plan, that plan may or may not include marriage someday. I'm actually not even talking about marriage when I'm talking about a God ordained "plan". I'm talking about something bigger than that...the bigger picture. I have a REALLY big dream in my heart for a lot of things. I think it's time I started focusing on that. God didn't bring me here "just because", He intended much more than that for me...you too.
posted by Larissa at
8:44 PM
7 Comments:
I am so taken with you, because I see the Lord grooming you as he has groomed me. And I've been in all the emotional places you are right now, and some of those places I'm still hangin' out in.(And i know that was wrong, but um... )I have some really big dreams too, and I know that all this change has been to prepare me and discipline me to accomplish His Will. And it's the same for you. Blessings, Rissa.
Good thoughts. Saying goodbye to a comfortable place isn't fun, but a challenge always brings a reward.
That's one of the most exciting things about this time is that regardless of how things turn out, I'm so excited about what God has in store for me.
I love what you said about trusting what you know and not how you feel...AMEN!!!
You know, when you stop and really think about it, we are all in transition. Our life here is just getting us ready for what awaits us in glory.
It will be worth it all!
I have been learning to live in the present lately. I too looked from one milestone to the next always waiting for what was coming, but I now realize that I was missing what is right in front of me and those times that seem "in between" aren't void of blessings. I'm glad thing turned out well for your friend and your MIL, which I couldn't understand, what you meant at first.
Jenny
I came by to tell you I tagged you for a meme..... come check it out!
BUT, I had to read your post and as always find it refreshing!!!! There are no "just because" with God, Larissa. It's all a BIG PLAN He just doesn't choose to tell us all of it before hand.
Susan
I am sooo proud to call you my blog sistah. lol Just from reading this post, I have come to the realization that I am right there as well: in between. I have to learn to be content where I am again. Its comes in phases, though.
Love ya girlie,
Jenn
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