Thursday, November 29, 2007

New Beginnings

Too bad you can't make sound effects on here. I would make a drum roll right now if I could.

Well it's over. I'm good. I'm not going to lie and say it was easy. All morning I was thinking okay, no big deal. I'm just going to go in there and do this, but then again I didn't really know what to expect. Well here in Lubbock, you literally walk around the court house with your attorney looking for a judge who "has a few minutes" that can grant the divorce. We met Drue Farmer on the elevator and went to her office, she swore me in, and then my attorney asked me about 20 questions, and it was over. I did get upset. It's just sad. I never realized just how much 3 little letters can encompass so many feelings.

I went on about my day. I did get to have lunch with Cheri and Chrissy, which is always a highlight.

When I got back to my office my mother-in-law emailed me. She said something to me that has stuck with me all day and I think I'm just going to adopt it as my new mantra. I don't know if she made it up or someone else said it, but she said, "you have to have an ending to have a new beginning." How true! This is a new beginning for me!

I guess I was a little melancholy today, but not really in a bad way. I've thought about the last year...it's ups and downs and I see so much of God's hand in this all. I truly stand amazed at the events of the last year. It feels like I've come full circle now and I see the past year, but from a distance and I've moved beyond it. Physically I feel that I literally can breathe better. I breathe deeper now. I don't know, it's weird and hard to explain all at the same time. But I truly "have a peace that surpasses ALL understanding." I kept thinking that I didn't think I would actually feel any different after it was over, but I do.

I just got off the phone with Sheila. We're having a party at her house next Thursday. It's not a divorce party, it's a bachelorette party. It's liable to be a little tacky. If you know Sheila, then you know what I mean. Sometimes we can just carried away with "themed" parties. All in good, clean fashion though. We both have to be in bed before the news comes on, so no worries there. We laughed, because I said something to her about her not getting too wild, and she said, "oh you know me, I tried to be wild that one time and it just never stuck." Yeah, that one time in college. By the way...you're all invited! Let me know if you want to come!

Well not to sound Oscar-esque or anything, but really thanks to you all. The last year has really been a journey for me... and to think that I almost gave up blogging last December. I thought my life was over, and I certainly never thought this blog would become a place of comfort and support for me. So many of you met me along way and became my friends! There have been so many occasions when a stranger has reached out to me and given me hope, and truly blessed me. That's what I call Christianity and "religion" in it's purest form. And then there are so many of you that I've been friends with, but I have grown closer to. Thanks to you all! I'd still like to meet the rest of you readers out there. I'm amazed at how this blog has taken on a life of it's own! I do promise that I am the least bite-able person out there!

Anyways, well thanks...thanks so much. I'm going to take a bubble bath and go to bed! Goodnight! :)

12 Comments:

Blogger Robby and Lynsey said...

Glad you are able to breathe easier ... that you are at peace and feel better about things. It has been a blessing to read about your journey to this place. Continued blessings on your new beginning! And have a fun party. :)

2:42 AM  
Blogger Penless Thoughts said...

Wonderful!!!!

I love this:
"you have to have an ending to have a new beginning."

Going to remember this one!!!!
Susan

10:14 AM  
Blogger Marta said...

What a fun party that sounds like! I can just imagine all the laughter that will happen! :)

It's been such a blessing and encouragement to me to be able to follow your journey Larissa. Thank you for allowing us all to witness how God has been working thru your life and giving you strength and peace by being tranparent and honest.

I'm so glad you are wrapped in His peace and breathing easier. Thoughts and prayers still headed your way from the Dugan family!

12:22 PM  
Blogger Lauren said...

I just want to echo what Lynsey and Marta said. You have been an inspiration to me and I'm glad that you have some peace now. I can't wait to hear "what's next" with your new beginning. Have fun partying with Sheila...I'm sure y'all will have a blast!

12:54 PM  
Anonymous Chrissy said...

I had fun Thursday, tell Sheila hi for me.

1:31 PM  
Blogger The Binkley Family said...

I am glad that you are able to open the doors to your new beginning. Hugs from central TX...sorry I will miss the party!

1:58 PM  
Blogger Rosheeda said...

This will sound strange, but i'm sure u'll get it: Congratulations.You're free now to chase God like you never have before. Enjoy the rest of your journey to the center of His Will.

3:05 PM  
Blogger Procters said...

Here's to new beginnings, fun parties, and bubble baths!! You are much stronger today than you have ever been. Be excited for the joy that God has planned for you. Blessings!! Cherise

3:49 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

I was thinking about you a lot. I am glad that you are feeling re-newed and I like that new mantra! I will be out of town Thursday, I leave early that morning b/c my MIL is taking me and my SILs to NYC! I am excited but hate to miss hugging your neck and hanging with all the girls that I miss so much! I will be there in spirit. I will call you when I get back, I am in Ft.Worth right now. I am well finally and will make a point to see you this week before I leave. Love you Larissa...........

10:44 PM  
Blogger Noel and Celeste said...

I'm thankful for you, Larissa. God's peace and blessings on you!

Wish I could be there for that party! But maybe it's better that I'm not:).

You're in my thoughts and prayers often, friend.

Love,
Celeste

12:21 PM  
Blogger jen at talking hairdryer said...

Congratulations on your new beginning! I pray that God will pour his blessings out all over your new life!

8:00 PM  
Blogger Lyndy said...

I love the comment your mother-in-law gave you. I am so glad that you are at peace. My computer has been down so I have not been online in several days but I have been thinking of you.

A new beginning has a nice ring to it and I pray yours will be full of blessings.

2:15 PM  

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