A Whole Lot of Random Thoughts
Well tomorrow it's back to the grind. The kids won't get back until tomorrow night, but it will be business as usual around here. I'll work for a couple of hours in the morning, and then try to get completely ready for their return. If you want to read a funny story about their adventurous trip to Grandma's house, click on Neva's link. I don't think I could have done it justice like she did since I wasn't actually in the car. When she told me about how long the trip ended up being and how crazy it got, she was laughing. So I take that as a good sign. Needless to say, it might be a while before they're all three invited back! I, however, am so completely grateful for the time I had. I just feel so rejuvenated, rested, uplifted, etc. It's not like my life is ending when they come back or anything, it just gets back to the busy life again! I am looking forward to the holidays with them though. I'm getting into the spirit and I bought the new Olivia Christmas book for them. Madi adores all the Oliva books. I think I've read the one about the missing toy about a bajillion times. (bajillion is way more than a billion) I think the author an illustrator are geniuses. Anyways, so I know they will love getting to read that over the holidays. I'm waiting to put the presents under the tree though, because I don't trust Madi for a minute. I can't blame her though, because I'm terrible myself. Every year, EVERY YEAR, I snoop. I will figure out what every last one of them is. I just can't help it. I'm the most curious person ever! I know it spoils the fun, but it's just so hard for me.
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Well the large print bible has left. I woke up this morning and everything was back to normal on my computer. Which is good, because I couldn't even hardly type on it. I hope I'm not getting a virus.
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Today I went to church, ate with my aunt and cousin, went to my 2nd cousin's birthday party, went and had coffee with my aunt, cousin, sisters and mom, then went to Divorce Care. I just barely got home! My Divorce Care leader, Elaina, told me that she's not going to start back in the Spring. She said that she is going to suggest to the Elders my name for a replacement if I wanted to do it. I was so honored! I told her I would love to, but I would like to wait until the fall of next year to do it, because I want to at least get Mason a year old before I commit to something like that. I guess maybe my P.O.C. degree in Psychology is starting to pay off. By P.O.C. I mean piece of crap...I don't actually think it's a piece of crap. I am very proud that I went back and finished school. I just always had so many comments from people about a Bachelors in Psychology. "Don't you know you can't do anything with a Bachelors in Psychology?" Yes, I know! But trying to tell me that in college is like trying to tell a pregnant lady that maybe getting thirds at the buffet isn't the best idea. Just wait for the look, because you know it's coming. No one was going to convince me to change my major so I didn't. And really I would say that although monetarily my degree hasn't helped any, but as far as having life skills, it's helped me a lot. And that's pretty valuable no matter how you look at it.
Next week is our last session for Divorce Care. That group has helped me so much!!! I do feel that I have moved on though and am now not really struggling with a lot of the issues that are more pressing for some. Tonight we talked about forgiveness. Once upon a time that was a really hard issue for me, but thankfully I've been able to do that. And on top of that I consider myself lucky, because I did get the "I'm sorries" that some people don't ever get. That makes forgiveness a lot easier too.
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I'm really looking forward to 2008 as well. I feel funny saying that, because I used to journal all the time. Now that I blog and I'm so open about my feelings, I don't journal like I used to. Well a year ago I was writing in my journal and talking about the upcoming year. I was soooo excited. Our business was changing, I was going to get to be home part-time, I was so excited about being pregnant, life just seemed like things were going to be great. And then BAM three weeks later, I had a bomb dropped on me. In my journal I wrote and I quote myself, "I can't wait for 2007, because I know this is going to be a great year. I can just feel it." That makes me laugh!!! Seriously, I am smiling right now. No, it wasn't the year I envisioned at all for myself, BUT through all the pain it has actually turned out to be a really good year in ways I never imagined. And I look at 2008 and say the same thing. Now I can't envision 2008 being any crazier than this past year. I might just have to be committed if that's the case. A person can only handle so much and I'm thankful that the Lord is aware of that. However, I don't know...I just have great optimism for a lot of things. And with God, I have no reason to ever doubt that.
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Well the large print bible has left. I woke up this morning and everything was back to normal on my computer. Which is good, because I couldn't even hardly type on it. I hope I'm not getting a virus.
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Today I went to church, ate with my aunt and cousin, went to my 2nd cousin's birthday party, went and had coffee with my aunt, cousin, sisters and mom, then went to Divorce Care. I just barely got home! My Divorce Care leader, Elaina, told me that she's not going to start back in the Spring. She said that she is going to suggest to the Elders my name for a replacement if I wanted to do it. I was so honored! I told her I would love to, but I would like to wait until the fall of next year to do it, because I want to at least get Mason a year old before I commit to something like that. I guess maybe my P.O.C. degree in Psychology is starting to pay off. By P.O.C. I mean piece of crap...I don't actually think it's a piece of crap. I am very proud that I went back and finished school. I just always had so many comments from people about a Bachelors in Psychology. "Don't you know you can't do anything with a Bachelors in Psychology?" Yes, I know! But trying to tell me that in college is like trying to tell a pregnant lady that maybe getting thirds at the buffet isn't the best idea. Just wait for the look, because you know it's coming. No one was going to convince me to change my major so I didn't. And really I would say that although monetarily my degree hasn't helped any, but as far as having life skills, it's helped me a lot. And that's pretty valuable no matter how you look at it.
Next week is our last session for Divorce Care. That group has helped me so much!!! I do feel that I have moved on though and am now not really struggling with a lot of the issues that are more pressing for some. Tonight we talked about forgiveness. Once upon a time that was a really hard issue for me, but thankfully I've been able to do that. And on top of that I consider myself lucky, because I did get the "I'm sorries" that some people don't ever get. That makes forgiveness a lot easier too.
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I'm really looking forward to 2008 as well. I feel funny saying that, because I used to journal all the time. Now that I blog and I'm so open about my feelings, I don't journal like I used to. Well a year ago I was writing in my journal and talking about the upcoming year. I was soooo excited. Our business was changing, I was going to get to be home part-time, I was so excited about being pregnant, life just seemed like things were going to be great. And then BAM three weeks later, I had a bomb dropped on me. In my journal I wrote and I quote myself, "I can't wait for 2007, because I know this is going to be a great year. I can just feel it." That makes me laugh!!! Seriously, I am smiling right now. No, it wasn't the year I envisioned at all for myself, BUT through all the pain it has actually turned out to be a really good year in ways I never imagined. And I look at 2008 and say the same thing. Now I can't envision 2008 being any crazier than this past year. I might just have to be committed if that's the case. A person can only handle so much and I'm thankful that the Lord is aware of that. However, I don't know...I just have great optimism for a lot of things. And with God, I have no reason to ever doubt that.
posted by Larissa at
8:02 PM
10 Comments:
"...trying to tell me that in college is like trying to tell a pregnant lady that maybe getting thirds at the buffet isn't the best idea."
That made me laugh! Have a great week!
Hi,
I just wanted to tell you that you have 3 of the cutest kids. Madi is just amazing and so smart. I hope the time with them away was relaxing. I have 4 kids and when my mom takes them it is great. She only takes one at a time now because of her health, but one is better than none, I say.
I pray 2008 is a great year for you. I remember saying the same thing about 2007. We just never know what God has in store for us.
Glad you had such a nice time this week.
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I share your degree, and its funny working in a salon people are pretty impressed by a degree that won't do much. Ha Ha.
Jenny
just stopping over from stacie's blog to say hi...
Evan
i met stacie through trey morgan on blogger. so i dont really know her either.she did what i did to you and just commented.
glad you had a good break- you certainly deserved one! Enjoy your reunion with your kiddos!
Hey, thanks for adding my blog link to your page. That is really an honor to be asked to lead the divorce care group, but I certainly think you would be great!
Larissa, What you wrote about believing 2007 to be such a wonderful up coming year and then BAM! This was exactly as it was for me in 1984!!!!! I could have written your very remarks. Just 23 years before!!!
Susan
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