Strength

Well two posts in one day...after much refocus and redirection...I'm doing alright. I actually ended up having a really good day. I got to eat quite possibly the most rejuvenating lunch at McDonald's with Lisa today. It was just nice to sit and talk and be honest and just vent. And then today is my Dad's birthday, so the fam went out to eat dinner tonight. Kyle and Ryder went home with my parents to spend the night. Which ought to be interesting! They've never both spent the night there...just the boys. I can't wait until Mason can do that too!!! :)

I've actually been able to talk to many friends today, whether it be through email or phone. Man, I am just so blessed with so many good people in my life that love me and want the best for me. My life is so rich and full, and although it is hard at times, it is a good life. And a life that I wouldn't trade. There are so many broken people out there who spend all their time self medicating themselves with whatever feels good to them at the time.

I guess at some point today, God just gave me more strength...somebody must have been praying for me, because it worked! I just kind of gathered myself and started fighting again. I'm tough, and I can do this. It doesn't really matter if I want to or not, the task is before me and I'm called to do it, so I will keep fighting.

No, life will not always be this way. It will change...it will get better...and God will continue to bless me.