I'm a huge advocate for people dealing with their stuff. That's why I knew what happened yesterday was okay. There are people, for example Nathan, who avoid dealing with their pain, and they become destructive instead. Dealing with pain is hard, but man I am so thankful for the times that God literally forced me to stare it straight in the face. Back in February when it was such an incredibly difficult time, and I had so much time on my hands, I remember thinking that someday I would be thankful for that time. I wasn't working, the kids were going to mom's day out 2 days a week, I was so lonely. God made me think about it all the time. But I think that made me really deal with the meat of the issue. I am appreciative for that time now. It helps me when times like last night pop up. They don't derail me, they just sneak up on when I'm not expecting it. Especially coming from him. Nathan doesn't deal with his emotions. He is the most emotionally void person I've ever met in my life. He jokes...about everything! But you've all heard the song, "Tears of a clown", right? That is so Nathan.

I took a hot bath, went to bed, slept all night (thank you Mason!!!!) and woke up and was in a great mood, again. I have no reason to doubt the great things in my life. I am so excited about the future. I can't even begin to tell you. Excited about what exactly? I don't know! I'm just excited about everything. I have hopes and dreams, and I think that God is stretching me to expand those hopes and dreams.

I don't know...sometimes there is more on my mind than I say. If you can actually believe that. If I said everything that was on my mind, then I'd probably blog like 10 times a day. There are lots of details that I haven't shared, that sometimes I want to. And that's just for different reasons. I don't know, maybe someday I will.

On another note, Mason is 4 months today!!! That's 1/3 of a year!!!!! That is just truly amazing to me. I am posting a picture of him from when he was 6 weeks. I forgot to post them when I got them. He has slept from 9p.m to 6:30a.m. two nights in a row!!! It's been wonderful.