Monday, August 20, 2007

What a weekend

Well we are moved. I tell you I am just nuts. I know that this move could not be helped, but seriously...I am so done with boxes and packing and unpacking. I know already that it was a great decision, because Mason had to go back to the doctor saturday morning while I was moving, because he got fever friday night. He had bronchiolitis, which is different than bronchitis. He is on a nebulizer now, and the doctor said that if his oxygen saturation levels were any lower, he would be in the hospital.

I had mentioned before that I didn't think that my duplex was ventilated well. The lady behind us smoked, and I swear the smell came through our duplex. It always frightened me greatly having a baby in there, so I was working as quickly as I could to figure something out. So regardless, I would have moved whether it had been to somewhere else in Slaton or back to Lubbock. I chose Lubbock, because I knew I would eventually move back here since I was working here, and I wanted to find a place and STAY!!! I am very, very happy with my house. It is 5 houses down from Colt and Suzanne, and about 3 or 4 blocks from my other sister, Jenny. It is only a 3 bedroom, but it is big enough for all of us, and being so close to the fam helps, so I am just thrilled to be where I am at.

I seriously started packing on Friday night. Sheila came out to help me, and if it hadn't been for her, I don't know what I would have done. She did most of everything for me, while I was trying to console Mason, who cried for 5 hours! He is doing a lot better though. He does really well on the nebulizer. It's so cute, it's in the shape of a little beetle car. My mom was actually the one who took him to the doctor, and he said that getting out of that duplex should help a ton, as I would imagine. The store where she got the nebulizer said that they have already started handing those out left and right for little kids. They said it looks like RSV season is starting early this year. Oh yeahhhhhhh....I was hoping I had at least until November before I had that to think about. However, based on the issues Mason has already had healthwise, he should qualify for the RSV shot in October. I just want my little man to be healthy!

I am feeling a lot less stressed now. Last week was just horrible for me. I don't know the last time I have just cried so much. I was just so overwhelmed by that test, moving...etc...Sheila made me laugh really hard though. We were sitting on the couch trying to talk over Mason's cry, and I got upset and I said, "you know I'm just feeling really stressed, because_____" And she stopped me and said, "I'm just curious how you're going to fill in that blank. It is because your husband left you, because you have three kids, because you're the bread winner, because you're moving and you haven't packed, because you just passed a huge test and now your job is changing, which one?" I just started laughing. She made an excellent point! Sometimes it's so hard for me to step outside of myself and not take myself so seriously. I feel that I am constantly going 90 miles an hour, and I almost have to or I would just crash. I don't have down time. And really I don't like living that way. It's important to rest. Even God rested! I know that I have a lot to deal with and I pray for stamina to do the things that are important. I pray for the know how to take care of my kids in the best way, and to be able to pay my bills. I pray for health of myself and my children and wisdom to be the best mom I can be. But I am just convinced that satan is the one who adds insanity to our lives. He's the one who wants us to run around crazy busy all the time, because we start to lose focus on Christ. We don't have time to! So I am trying to rid my life of as much insanity as possible. Some things I can not control, but for those things that I can control, I am trying to say, "no more!"

God has blessed me so much, and although I still have so many unanswered areas in my life, I have to continue to rest in him daily...every moment!!! I am the only one who steps away from that. God hasn't moved. So I need to get where He is, and stay!!!

I hope you all have a good week. I will try to post some pictures later. I have lots of random pics from the past month.


Blogger jen at Conversations said...

Hang in there sweetie, I'm praying for the insanity to stop soon.

4:41 PM  
Blogger Penless Thoughts said...

Try and relax a little bit. Some things don't matter that much if they don't get done until next week. I had a friend once that said "If you don't wash the dishes every day you just keep adding them and they get harder and more difficult to wash when you do. Dusting, if you don't dust for 2 weeks it doesn't take any more time than it does for one days dust." Great wisdom in that!!!

6:30 PM  
Blogger Marta said...

Praying for things to slow down some! So sorry that Mason is sick, praying about that too! I think you are, by far, one of the strongest people I know... you truly are such an encouragement to me. Thanks for sharing your life, thoughts and struggles.

9:23 PM  
Blogger Lyndy said...

So glad you got your move over with and that Mason is doing better. My move is next week and I can't wait for it to be over.

Try and relax some you deserve it.

12:31 AM  
Blogger Sara said...

I had NO idea you were moving back! That's great! Yea!! And how wonderful that you are down the street from Colt/Suzanne/Jenny! Awesome!
I agree, you are one of the strongest women I know...I'll keep praying for things to slow down for you and not be so hectic! :)

11:02 PM  

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