Friday, March 30, 2007

Moving Day...again???

I think I could find some sort of spiritual meaning out of everything. I don't know if it's right or not, but it's a peaceful thing for me anyways. Like this weather...I love it. I don't really like it when the kids want to play outside, because they can't, but I just think there is something so cleansing and peaceful about rain. I love to watch the lightening and clouds move, it just has God and his power written all over it. It helps me to feel even closer to God.

I am packing today. I decided to take the day off and get everything ready for tomorrow. This really will be an easy move, because I don't have to clean out anything. I already did that the first time I moved. So I am just putting things in boxes.

I have a lot on my mind. I have tried to write, but it's just not coming out the way I want it to, or it's just hard for me to talk about. I am doing good, I am just trying to focus on today...and not borrow trouble from tomorrow. It's funny, I changed the name of my blog about 9 months ago I guess. It was definately before all of the new events of my life happened, but I find myself saying, "take it one day at a time" so often now. It is really how I have had to learn to live. And I know that is what God wants. There isn't any good in worrying about tomorrow, because what good will it do? I just need to take it to God and know that He will take care of me. I need to focus on what I am doing right now, and how God is working in this moment. And He is working.

And it's still okay for me to be sad. Sometimes I get onto myself, because I get sad and I just wish I could snap out of it. But as I've learned it is okay, and it is good. I just need to make sure I crawl up into God's lap when I am sad, and let Him comfort me. And really, as frustrated as I may get with myself, I am glad that I feel things. There are a lot of people in this world that just don't feel anything. They are so cold and dead on the inside that they wouldn't know a feeling if it hit them in the face!

In my divorce care group I learned that for most people it takes 1 year of healing for every 4 1/2 years you were married. So I have a little over a year before I'll be through the brunt of this, according to experts. We talked about new relationships at our last meeting. And of course someday I would like to be married again, but that is just crazy to think about right now. At my one year point I will have a 6 month old. I know the men are going to be lining up! But one thing I did hear that gave me hope was from a minister. He said, "God knows where your mate is, so I guess you better get to where God is." I thought that was interesting. I don't know, it's kind of wierd to even talk about. My priority is my kids, and making sure they're healthy and happy and good, christian kids...so I don't want anything getting in the way of that!

Anyways, well I better get around here and get some more packing done. Have a good weekend!

3 Comments:

Blogger April Carrasco said...

Happy Moving! Be sad, be happy, feel it all. It is all a part of living and healing.

10:52 AM  
Blogger jen said...

I hope the move is smooth and the weather doesn't pose many problems. I, too, love the weather!

11:21 AM  
Blogger Lyndy said...

Your prince is out there and God has him already picked out and will reveal him at the perfect time.

As Lee and I are learning in our couples Bible study...God creates us with a need for companionship and there is nothing wrong in your hoping for your future and a future mate.

You are a wonderful godly mother and God will bless all your efforts.

10:52 PM  

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