Wednesday, September 03, 2008

And the greatest of these is Love...

I checked my sister's blog and well I guess the cat it out of the bag...so I'll go ahead and say something here too.

A non-profit organization called Faith, Hope, & Love Ministries has been started for single parents. I guess you could say I'm the "poster child" behind it. It has been started, because of me, but I will not always be the main focus.

A blog was started for it and you can go here to read about it. It was a private blog at first, but those who knew about it had the choice to forward it on or not. So...ehhhhh...now I'm once again feeling very naked and vulnerable to the world wide web about my "private" life.

I said last week that I learned a few things...well...hmmmm...

I'm really struggling for words here.

Okay, right now I'm waiting on the Attorney General to open my case with my ex-husband to start prosecuting him, or whatever it is they do to dead beat dads.

I spent a lot of emotional and physical energy last week literally chasing him to no avail and to find out what I really deep down inside already knew.

He doesn't care.

Thank you for all of the offers to run him over with your car.

I said from the very start that this blog would NOT become a place of a bitter and scorned ex-wife, and let me tell you I am neither one of those. However, the situation is what it is and the fact remains that he has not given me a dime in months...or seen the kids.

I'm okay with him not seeing the kids, I'd rather he didn't.

The money...well, that's a little bit more of a sensitive subject and understandably so. Nuff said...

There can be a whole lot of negativity drawn into that and really I have all the positivity in the world. I am drawing my strength right from where it should be drawn...God.

I don't know the HOW of all of this, and I don't care about the WHY anymore. I refuse to spend anymore of my energy that I need to maintain for my children on wondering what my ex is doing and if he's going to come through like he's promised me countless times.

I'm done. Tell it to the judge.

So comes the birth of FHL...like I said I am the inspiration behind it, but it's primary purpose it to grow and benefit more single parents.

I'm still very shy about all of this, and I know very little about what has gone on, but I do want to say thank you. Thank you for the love, support, and encouragement that you have all given me. You will never know how much you have impacted my life. :)

6 Comments:

Blogger Chrissy Cross said...

One of the reasons that you are the poster child for that organization is not because of your situation, but it is what you have done with your situation. You have inspired countless people by your sheer will to be ok and provide a good loving home for your kids. If any single parent deserves a little help and encouragement you do! Also, I think that you will continue to be a great inspiration to other single parents who have gone through the same pain and struggle. You are a symbol of hope, keep it up, friend!

9:40 PM  
Blogger Barbie said...

Oh my word I SOOOOO understand! I had to take my ex to court to have his wages garnished also. There was a time when child support stopped and I had to literally make the decision to trust that God was Jehovah Jireh..I had to trust that He was my provider and not man...HARD HARD thing to do when you are raising three children but God has NEVER let me down and even if on paper we have little to no money...at the end of every month ALL of my bills are paid and my kids have never missed a meal...pure God:-) He will take care of you and THAT I can promise...cuz He is all God like that and stuff;-)

9:41 PM  
Blogger Jenny said...

I admire your openness. I truly believe that sharing with others is how we connect and grow,however, I find it hard to do.

8:37 AM  
Blogger Cheri said...

You are such a blessing to so many people. Your strength awes and amazes me constantly.

6:40 PM  
Blogger Adam & Carrie Tungate said...

You are so amazing, Larissa. I know it was hard for you to share all of this, but I also know that you have and will continue to touch numerous people's lives because you've shared your story. You are an inspiration! I love you.

4:44 PM  
Blogger Freebird1079 said...

You truly are an amazing woman, Larissa!!! I TRULY admire you for the way you have handled your cirumstances! God will lead and guide you, but most of all comfort you when you are stressed or anxious, or just stretched in too many ways!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

2:53 PM  

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